Wednesday, April 22, 2009

To Sail or Not to Sail

Ok, where do I start. Not a whole lot has been going on here. I had another sailing class on Thursday...and one tomorrow...I made it through with no bruises last time. I am still not convinced that I really want to sail. Its not very relaxing for me...yet. I am not sure if it ever gets relaxing. You have to constantly adjust the tiller and the sails and watch for puffs of wind. Then there is the whole process of shifting your weight...all of the time. I hate to stop going to lessons because I HATE quitting things. And to hear the instructors (Wet Hens) talk about the class, its the best thing since sliced bread and I will forever remember the great time I had learning to sail. That's another thing I would hate to miss out on...this fabulous life altering experience....but then there is the fact that every time I think about going, I feel panic. I wake up at night and my heart races when I think about it. I have no idea why...I am not scared of the water...well, I am scared of sharks and jellyfish, and we are sailing in the ocean. I was brought up on boats and lakes all of my life...but a boat with a motor is much more relaxing....also, food, drinks, and a radio are all key to being on the water.
This class is also set up to be a bit competitive. You get a partner and an instructor but at the end of the class, we have to race the boats and race tying knots. I am not super competitive with people I don't know...and I haven't really felt a bond with anyone there yet. Now, if I had some close friends or family here with me, then maybe I would be more apt to compete. Maybe my biggest fear is making a fool out of myself. So, maybe its a self-esteem issue. It takes a lot for me to feel confident and its hard to feel that around a bunch of strangers that don't know they need to really encourage you and reassure you that there is nothing to be scared we will see...I really don't want to quit, but I don't see the benefit in stressing myself out constantly over something that was supposed to be fun.

1 comment:

Allyson said...

Well first of all, the one thing you are NOT is a wet hen...but that is beside the point. I completely agree that boating should involve a portable blender, a radio, and a few bags of chips. And you only get up when you see the little red and white bobber get tugged under the surface of the water. I say there are a million fun new things to try in this world - why waste your time on something that is not enjoyable? I mean, I hear that skiing is a blast. But the idea of flying down a mountain covered in ice/snow with no viable way to stop only panics me. And you have just convinced me not to sail because honestly that is NOT how I grew up on a boat. Can't wait to hear about the next adventure!